When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be. When I let go of what I have, I receive what I need.
Tao Te Ching
My first three experiments were focused on cultivating my passions. I thought I was throwing myself softballs, choosing to double down on activities that I already enjoy. In reality, however, I ended up being disappointed because it never lived up to my lofty expectations. This disappointment morphed into guilt and resistance to doing the things that I love to do. My first month of doing yoga every day felt too long, while the second two months of music and philosophy felt way too short to accomplish even a sliver of what I had hoped. Life always seemed to interfere.
I have A LOT going on this month already, so in an effort to relinquish some of the control that has caused me suffering, this month I will be practicing the art of non-doing in doing--spring cleaning my life, as it were. I have been in a long period of transition, which has not come to an end, if there ever is such a thing. No dust is settling, but rather lifting into the air. But I will not be blinded by the dust bowl. Instead I will seek stillness and liberation amongst the dancing particles.
This month I am finally releasing my debut LP Comets & other drifting bodies on April 12th. I started writing and recording these songs back in 2015 and had naively thought I would release it in 2016. Well here I am 4 years later, ready to let it go and share it!
I am also releasing my job as the Grants and Foundations Coordinator at AGE of Central Texas, a nonprofit supporting older adults and their caregivers. I will miss my colleagues and the clients we serve, but this feels like the right move. I will be starting a new position as the Content Marketer at Alegion, a tech startup that offers supervised training data for machine learning projects. I am expecting a bit of a learning curve but am absolutely thrilled to begin this new challenge!
My rental house is being sold and has become a revolving door of young hip couples and real-estate wheelers and dealers inspecting our home. I love this house, but it is time to move on and nest elsewhere.
In the process of letting go, you will lose many things from the past, but you will find yourself.
Got any tips, tricks, or practices to help me through this transition? 😙